astrology 2019·eris·full moon

Full Moon in Libra :: a change of game ::

Tomorrow we cross the threshold of the full moon in Libra. It is the second full moon in a row in this sign. Last month the moon made its monthly opposition with the sun at zero degrees of Libra and this month makes it at 29 degrees of this sign. If this month has brought us anything between these two full moons it is the feeling of the cogs turning, the gears moving. We are taking our first steps through the new territory of the astrological year.

Between these two full moons in Libra we had the first new moon in Aries, the first sign of the astrological wheel, the start of our new astrological year. This new cycle opened against the background of the conjunction of Pluto with the south node of the moon. This astrological configuration (close to – coming soon – the conjunction of the south node with Saturn) is the heavy weight of the astrology of 2019.

The combination of the archetypical narrative of Pluto (death, destruction) with the south node of the moon (karma, heritage, the past) in Capricorn (internal and external structures and authorities) speaks to us of the dissolution of a karmic knot which has opened the door to new narrative potentials. The access that we have to these new possibilities is going to depend on our capacity to let go of control, adapt to the change and release what no longer functions.

For some this process may be so painful that they prefer to cling on to the familiar and known, repressing this evolutionary energy. This strategy may give us – in the short term – a sensation of security, authority and control, however, in the long term it may have a huge cost for our future. The invitation is to pass through the emotional intensity – which without doubt can be abrasive and even distressing – in order to take the step towards a new territory.

This step can happen in various ways. The first, through embracing grief and sorrow. We cannot sustain the transformation of this moment if we are not able to honor our grief on an everyday basis. If we are not able to pause to recognize and honor that which is leaving us – at the small and large scale – this grief becomes frozen, it freezes us.

It is painful, but it also liberates. In order to feel this, we have to take the time to surrender ourselves. We have to take time to give up and cry. We have to look after the deep feeling which emerges and love it unconditionally. And in order to embrace this moment, we have to love ourselves outside of the idealized vision (version) that we may have of ourselves, from certain spaces from the past and from certain relationships. In order to embrace this moment, we have to love ourselves in defeat. To love ourselves in failure.

The second step would invite us to open a symbolic dialogue with what is happening to us and with what is moving through us. Through creative expression, through ritual, through ceremony we can direct the flow of the old-stagnant-toxic energy which wants to move out of our field. We express ourselves in a sacred way. We give form to what is happening to us. We do not leave it trapped inside, silenced.

If we have the resources to move the energy we can do it in solitude. If we do not have them, we look for support, help, mentoring, in order to move the soma trapped in the body, which in turn is expressed unconsciously through our beliefs and which conditions our perceptions. 

A third step implies recognizing our errors, our participation – conscious or unconscious – in the situation which oppresses and injures us. This speaks to us of an expiatory recognition, without guilt or accusations, without violence against ourselves or against others, just the acceptance of the role of our ignorance, of our vanity, of our pride. This implies some kind of opening up or confession which relieves us, which liberates us. We liberate ourselves from the burden of maintaining a role, an attitude, a way of thinking. We liberate ourselves from a past that we have embodied.

A fourth step would speak to us of a process of purification in which we honor, invoke, celebrate the element of our water. We cleanse ourselves, we bless ourselves, we refresh ourselves, we recognize ourselves in the transparency of water, reflection of that which we are. From stagnant, turbid and toxic waters we move towards fluid and clear waters.  

Water ceremonies invite us to repair, console, reconcile. This is a good time to remember that, whilst the south node in conjunction with Pluto is showing us the hardness and the rigidity of that which needs transformation, it is the north node of the moon in Cancer that is pointing towards the gateway of evolutionary growth, the solution, the resolution. It is the water of Cancer which reminds us that without honoring our most intimate and deepest emotions we will not be able to get out of the hardness, demands, resentments that compose this knot which wants to be undone.

Pluto then becomes the representative of resurrection, and the south node of the moon of the remaining balance of some kind of debt from the past, a knot that dissolves in order make space for the liberation of our creative, evolutionary energy. We can see this narrative play out from the micro to the macro – and from the macro to the micro – inviting us to remember that the collective is personal and the personal is collective.

Under this full moon in Libra, Pluto is also making a ninety-degree angle (a square) with Eris in Aries. This little charted transit in the astrological narrative speaks to us of a deep change in the game. 

Eris is the archetype of the party pooper. Eris is the one that delivers the apple of discord, breaks the dominant narrative and proposes a new game. She can do it from the position of the strength of a shaman, this being her highest dimension; or she can do it from the infantile anger of wanting all the attention for herself and not being able to bear not being invited to the party. The shaman is not afraid of spoiling the game because she knows that it is oppressive and does not allow us to evolve. The childish tantrum is just the expression of a badly managed old resentment. The danger of the tantrum is that, from this place, the revenge of Eris liberates, yes, but it does so through irreparable damage.

This square of Pluto and Eris is implosive and explosive to the extent that it speaks to us of a feminine power with a monumental transformational potential, and at the same time of the responsibility that comes with being a representative, a channel of this power. It is a very fine line. 

The astrological narrative which accompanies us at this lunar cycle invites us to break the spell of the idealization of the feminine. It invites us to look deeply into the shadow of the feminine. And when we speak of the feminine shadow here, we are not talking about the fertile shadow of creation, we are not talking about the emotional compost that nourishes the beauty of the cycle of life-death-life which we are. In this context, when we speak of the shadow of the feminine, we are talking about the corrupt, the perverse, the damaged. We are talking about repressed rage, we are talking about a dominant and archaic fear, we are talking about the infected wound in the heart that poisons perception, that clouds judgement. We are talking about this part of our consciousness, the exiled, condemned, demonized, shamed voice of the feminine.

This astrological configuration makes a call to us to look after ourselves and be careful of an awakening to a power of the feminine that does not contemplate balance, harmony, agreement, listening, diplomacy, loving encounters. When the power of the feminine is raised without this connection with the care and the carefulness that being conscious, and present awakens in us, then it can become merciless revenge, destructive unconsciousness and its damages are irreparable. 

And it is important to make clear that when we talk about the feminine we are naming that which goes beyond gender. We are naming an archetypical force that inhabits us all. This clarification is important because in the mirror of gender we can project our wounded narratives and demonize each other mutually, men and women, trapped in the karmic knot of the gender war. Yet the astrological narrative invites us to go beyond gender in order to see together how we use this power of the feminine, whether that is to reclaim and defend it or to attack it, whether that is to raise it up on a pedestal or to bring it down. The reality is that we are all trapped in this knot, each from his or her own side of the mirror, each in his or her projected narrative.

Being capable of channeling this call to receive the force of this feminine darkness with love and compassion in order to direct it towards harmony is a great challenge. Eris is irate, offended, irritable and cannot be contained, has no limit that regulates her. Who dares to tell the goddess of discord to calm down and to listen? Who dares to be the representative, the mediator to start a dialogue with this wound, this vast fissure in our psyche? 

Hence why this full moon in Libra, for the second time in this astrological cycle, reminds us of the gift of reflection, the power of reflection as a tool for self-knowledge. An intimate mirror or a collective mirror, which narratives do we identify with, commit to? Which forces do we offer our energy and attention to, whether through idealization or rejection?

And whilst it is certain that the archetypical forces of Eris and Pluto can be huge in their transformative power, they are here to be integrated, to be loved, they are here asking for consciousness. This consciousness may go through a surrender that has a flavor of death. This consciousness can imply a turning of the page, renouncing a familiar expression, saying goodbye to a part of ourselves in order to say yes, in order to embrace openness, in order to embrace the new game. 


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